First off i'll tell you my name is Deann and his name is Andy We did meet in a chat room called freelove and he was incredible.he posted that heart rose thingy in room i melted i knew he was gonna be mine.

Just had no clues of how to get him away from her.so i settled for being his friend nothing more ..

all the while i was falling so deeply in love with him listening to his problems i hid my own.Not never discussing my real life issues.Believe me i have them still.We talked in chat almost everyday he was rude crude sometimes a soft place but i was a bitch just as much a soft place as he was.

Once he told me to leave chat never come back i was to personal for it.Because i believe in helping out my friends .i logged off crying like a baby .I returned back as someone else just to talk to my friend Annalisa to let her know he had destroyed how i felt gti thought he was careless and the biggest soft place i'd ever come across.None the less my friends in chat ragged his soft place about the way he talked to me..But he still didn't care so i stayed in chat and ignored him as often as possible the freak was a tease always playing mind games with me ..But hey i'm not dumbi played back.If i ignored him for too long it wouldn't be long afterwards i would always get a email from him ..

Sometimes i'd email him first but not always.I told him i was moving awaym said my goodbyes in chat and he found out and it blew his mind.

The trutth was i wanted far away from him.I had so hard tried to forget ever talking with him because i found him so incredible i wanted this cruel heartless hung up on another woman man to be mine.But at what price was i going to have to pay..He would find out i was leaving a here comes another email or he would pop up in chat as some bizarre name knowing i was a sucker for a romantic.He always got his way he would lie saying he was wanting to come here to meet me .So i'd stay .I let him control my every move with out him even knowing he was doing itgt but i think he knew it because it was how he kept me hanging on to a dream He hated the guy i was chatting to regularly but he was involved so my thoughts no big deal we are just friends..

bullandy would try all kinds of things just to keep my attention on him and damn thing it worked.I had told my very best friend Karen how i felt for him and made her promise never to tell..

Now i know she did.

Andy found out a tornado had hit my home town and i think reality might have hit him just a little because he goes into chat demanding my number from Wade and i told Wade to give it to him .

He had to know i was okay .Not too mention those phone sex chats he seemed to like alot ..

So on one occasion i decided i would freak Andy out by telling him i had bought cucumbersand i was using them ..

This freak in turn told his real life friend i was a cucumber freak.

He told me his measurements and i went off in search of just his size..So once again i'm the sucker i'd believe anything this man would say to me..PPl would be in chat and if i thought it was him i'd tell them to call me as soon as i'd hear there voice i'd hang up because i was used to his games.He toyed for 6 months with my emotions but it was his own fears that held him there in NY.He was afterall SoulReaver .

But i got that soul for my own now ..Too bad chics you lose.He found out i was having problems with Wade and he was on his way here .

He arrived and i couldn't drive fast enough that night.

I had to meet this man who had stole my heart .

I told him we would be friends if nothing else i respected his relationship with her.BUT I WANTED HIM FOR MYSELF..

We met i did not hug him nor did i kiss him we went back to my house where he met all the weirdos in my house.

The nextday Wade was gone.andy stayed with me for a week teasing me everyday but i'm strong i never gave in ..

God i wanted to be bad with him though.The resistance was hard..

We talked alot and he was really in love with the other girl which i had to respect and understand his wishes he stayed one week before leaving me and crushingmy world but i had to let him go i had promised him that.so i saw him off at the same place we had met and yes its true i cried something horrible i was losing the one thing i loved and could not have.His heart belonged to another and i had to respect that .He left and i returned home to cry like i had lost a part of me because he had took my heart with him when he left.He called me from a short piece up the highway and i said please come back if ya want too.He wanted sex ..I did too but if we had done it on those grounds it just was not who i was .I'm not that kinda gal..But i think that day if it would have kept him here i might have.He called me again later that next day stranded in Philly.We talked for hours .I had to know he was home safe .

Even made him promise me that the second he got there he wouuold call me and tell me he was ok.And that he did.

I was relieved at the same time i was destroyed inside he had took a part of me with him.We talked everyday for 2 weeks then it was a few days before his birthday i called him asking what he wanted he replied with i want us i want the family i want to be there with you.

Then he said i'm in love with you.I dropped the phone my sister picks up the phone asking him what he had said to me because i was crying so hard atlast i was gonna get this incredible man i loved more than life.

he is still here today and why he has stuck it out with me is beyond my imagination.We've been through more than most couples go through in a lifetime.And i want to spend the rest of my lifetime with him just to wake up in his arms everyday is all i'll ever need because with out him i am nothing.Maybe next time i'll tell you ppl about our first time in the park he says i'm a tease and of course i deny it.....